I'm already tired of repeating mistakes that should've been solved a long time back but apparently, things don't just seem to work as well as it should. Sometimes I ask myself if what I'm doing right now is right and am I really doing this because I want to do it, or is it because I feel obligated to flaunt around worthless words and sounds just for the sake of being known by a mass of strangers?
I've taken a two week break from work. I've been working for 5 weeks now and I've learnt loads of stuff about this intriguing world of Architecture and buildings. I initially opted to take something of less difficulty as a career choice. After learning the true nature of the process required to become a full fledged architect in Malaysia, I thought that no way was I going to spend 7 years of my life plorring over books upon books upon books.
So I was at a dilemma. To take Architecture? Or to abandon it and become the rock star I always hoped to be (which is still a fat chance in reality). I was so...intent on just forgetting about architecture so that I could pursue a course that would inexpensive and closer to home but what good will it do for my entire character building persona? I'd still be the same Reening, never changing, never evolving except in the growing older part and never moving forward. But the prospects of moving out to a foreign world was daunting...
And then someone told me,"You can do better than this. You can."
And that made all the difference. Things started to look a little bit clearer on my side of destiny (although I might have a wrong view of it) and I decided. I don't know where all these roads will take me because you never know until you've travelled them with a heart of yearning and a will of steel. So I guess I'll take the chance for once.
How soon?
I'm still finding the answer to that myself.
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