Coping

Its been another two months since my last actual blog post so I guess an update is always welcomed. The new subjects this semester for FNBE have been slightly easier than the last so far and I find myself with a little more free time than before. Maybe its just me or maybe I haven't gone through the semester long enough to feel the true tortures of the architectural lifestyle but I believe things are turning out for the better.

I've gotten used to living in this new place of mine. Every morning I wake up to either my alarm or to the incessant stomping of my housemates feet on the wooden stairs. Then I freshen up, grab my bags, put on some shoes and head to college. A 15 minute walk ensues. At the start of my new semester, having to walk 12-20 minutes to University was a total pain, I couldn't stand wasting so much time just walking and I hated to sweat so much before the day even started.

But now, I find that there are many simple yet peaceful moments in walking and not to mention the health benefits as well. There are hard days and there are normal days. During the hard days, walking allows my mind to wander for a bit, to not think so critically as I usually do by mashing up thoughts up thoughts until everything becomes a complete mess of words. It gives me a small semblance of peace. And within my various walking sessions, I see the world a little bit differently each time.

I see trees swaying in the wind, their leaves slowly flowing back and forth as if dancing to a tune. I notice the kids at the futsal and basketball courts, their cries and shouts a testament to the youth they carry. I notice the animals, and I see how fragile and lonely they are. In a city, strays lead a hard life. No one even gives a care about these creatures and they are left to fend for themselves in the cold and dirt.

As I finish this somewhat nostalgic post of mine, I just wish to say that life isn't all that you would hoped in to be. When we were kids, we would dream the world as a wonderful place that we could grow into. The world is a wonderful place. But its the people. Its the people that destroy that joy and bring forth problems upon problems. Don't believe what others try to force into you. That is pure bullshit. Believe in yourself, because when everything falls apart, there will be no one else to save you. Except, you.